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I’m so frickin’ fed up with my kids right now. I was going to rant on the frequented mom’s site, but of course, it’s not loading right now. So you, my one reader, are going to witness my spewing.

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGH. I don’t want to do this anymore. I think I suck at it. Can I quit and go on unemployment?

Did you see that SuperNanny episode where the mom is constantly telling the girls (twin girls) to “go play.” Well, I do that. And have been doing that quite a bit. Am I scarring my child for life? Am I “rejecting” him? I don’t know. I hope not, but I don’t know what else to do because I’m out of patience. Out. of. patience. Frickin’ kid is asking for stuff all the damn. day.

There’s been a kind of progression. When he would ask for something that I didn’t want him to do or didn’t want to give him right then, I wouldn’t say “no” outright. I’d say, “Well, let’s do that when x, y and z” or something like that.

But then, it would seem like he didn’t understand that I was telling him no when I tried to do it like that, so he’d keep asking.

So, eventually, I started adding the word “no” into my explanation. But he would still keep asking.

Now I see that it doesn’t matter what I say: he’s going to bug the crap out of me anyway, so my responses have become a snippy, emphatic, “NO!” At least, after he’s asked my ten times, that’s what it becomes.

I feel bad being like that, but I don’t know what to do. At least, when I raise my voice, he’ll stop asking.

And he’s whining a lot. I say that it’s the “Caillou-ification” of D. I avoided that show for a long time, but his dad has started letting him watch it lately. Caillou whines a lot. And now D is whining even more. I swear. C*aillou needs an episode about not whining. Seriously.

The only thing we can do lately without me losing my patience is watch TV.

The other one has given up his afternoon nap, goes to sleep at 7:00 p.m., but wakes up at 5:00 a.m. We are not happy. We just need to go to bed earlier, but I enjoy surfing the net in the evenings and J watches TV. The Daily Show is on at 11:00 p.m.

But we need sleep. Things go better with more sleep.