Postcard from bat-shit-crazy land.
October 9, 2005I must spend a good part of my life hanging out on the all-too-thin border between sane-enough and bat-shit-crazy. Apply the slightest pressure and I fall so easily into bat-shit-crazy land, which is where I’m writing you from at the moment. Some days I just can’t deal with everything. Things are just too hard, beyond the capacity of my limited little mental and emotional processing capabilities. To even begin to describe whatever is bothering me seems pointless. It’s pretty much all the same stuff that everyone else goes through, so I feel silly complaining about it. All the same, there’s got to be a better way to keep from riding the express-train to bat-shit-crazy land. Any ideas?
No ideas - I’m a card-carrying E-TTB-S-CL passenger, racking up my frequent-rider miles.
I guess the way I’ve been seeing it lately is that I just need to ride it out and go with the flow because I’ve been there enough times to know that it does eventually get better. And yeah, I also realized, like you, that it seems that pretty much everyone goes through it in their own way.
The more I think about it, the more it amazes me that I, and women in general, are not even crazier than we are already. When I think about the hormones - periods, pregnancy, childbirth, breastfeeding, periods again, maybe more kids, and the idea of menopause - holy crap, you know? I think we spend a lot of time freaking out that we’re just losing it, when really it’s not quite so cliche and scapegoat-ish to blame it on hormones.
Guys have it easy. Maybe during puberty they go through similar hormone rushes and then calm and then rushes again, but nothing like what we deal with.
I think we should look at ourselves as the norm and consider guys to be freakishly level.
Can you tell that I’ve been on the E-TTB-S-CL just recently? LOL
Comment by mel — October 10, 2005 @ 3:34 pm